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The psychology of repentance

This is what I've learnt lately: repentance is just another word for refusing to live in denial. It's an act of turning: turning away and...

Underdeveloped theory: Evolution of rage

Yawning is one of those unconscious, universal acts—so mundane, so instinctual, that we rarely question it. We yawn when we’re tired,...

Questions of faith

There’s a question that has lingered in my mind for years, surfacing most vividly in quiet moments—especially at Christmas, when the...

Expectations are compliments

For as long as I can remember, I’ve been taught that to be a woman means to expect nothing. That life would be smoother, happier, more...

Love is bullsh*t: The damage

This entry was written in 2015, after an agonising heartbreak A woman in love is such an over-romanticised idea. I blame Barbra...

The honest cycle of self-infliction

How fragile is self-esteem? Years built, but how swiftly would you trade it for tender affection? Why can't the two exist at once? I've...

Journal: Reflections on faith

Faith is like artwork. Artworks, like films, music, poetry — they are mediums — representations of our minds and feelings when words fail...

Journal: On Patience

Written on 29 October 2023 When I was younger, my life was a never-ending chase. It was a relentless race against time, always pursuing,...

A Letter: Dear John

Dear John (a pseudonym granted not for your benefit but as a mere formality you scarcely deserve), Here I am, writing this letter, each...

Journal: On kindness & clarity

Written on 7 December 2023 Over the weekend, my papa and I were talking about kindness and what it means to be kind. We agreed that...

2020 pandemic iso reflections

For those in the dark, my thoughts find sanctuary in writing. But manage your expectations – a good chunk of these musings is a cryptic...

A Poem: Your Return

This poem was written in 2019, when the past came back A year has passed I sit, listening to the wind's hum, so steadfast But I recall,...

A Poem: Less Than A Year

This poem was written in 2018, when I met a man - we fell in love but were never together Gaze upon me, my dear In strong silence, not a...

A Poem: To the I

This poem was written in 2015, for my very best friend In my book, characters meet their demise, fleet, and brief My concerns transient...

A Poem: The Timbre of Your Laughing Eyes

This poem was written in 2017, when I realised I fell in love. The night is bright, a gleam in dark's deep sway Or is it but the eve, in...

The ego conundrum

So there I was, in the midst of what I expected to be a casual chat with a girlfriend. It started off innocently enough, with a question...

Politics brought me back to the cross

Embarking on a journey in politics as an Indonesian woman, I often get hit with the question, "Why politics? Isn't that just a waste of...

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